Hmm. I was looking out the car window today. I saw the sky. Well, duuuh, you might say.

Perhaps so. But it made me think. Made me think about Moscow. You see, you can never see the sky in big cities. Well, not properly, anyway. I loved that.

I've never been homesick in my life, actually. Strange, but I don't know where you call 'home'. And I was fine with that. Because I always knew that whereever I was living, it wasn't permanent. Because while I was a child, I didn't get a say in my parents' decisions. And I know when I grow up, I'm not planning to stay here in Perth anyway. So I just lived my life whereever it took me, not thinking of where to call 'home'.

Now I wonder.

I don't know why I didn't like the sky so much today. It's usually such a relief to see it, the fresh air and freedom it brings. But then again, fresh air doesn't mean much to me anymore. Not after the smell of the Moscow underground (it smells so good, you have no idea), the smokey smell of the air when you go outside again. It's just so different now.

I can't believe I'm saying this, but I miss Russia. I used to be so neutral towards it. Sure, my family (there's more than I knew about) and friends (all those people who say 'oh God, you've grown so much!' and leave you wondering who the hell they are) are there, and I know I'm going to visit every now and then, but I didn't remember it well when I left and my parents always told me about all the unfriendly people and everything. So it all pretty much evened out.

Now it's different. It's just feels right to be there. And I probably fit in more here in Australia than I do back in Russia, because let's face it, I have no idea what's going on there, in every aspect. But still...

I thought that it might be just the metropolises that I miss. Heh, I wish. I don't miss Tokyo. At all. And Vienna? Eh, I feel foreign there. And just the chemistry isn't right. Plus, you can see the sky there. It's way too green.

I think when I go to uni, after a few years, I'll visit Moscow again. And then if I can, I want to move to London or Massachusetts... And study there. That would be incredible. Well, I think so now anyway.